As I sit here reading this morning I am so convicted. I regularly tell people how the following verse is not true for me: Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV84). Not that I don't BELIEVE it's truth, but walking it out day to day is not easy.

I envision walking this out by being more like my husband.  He just lets the worries of most things roll off his back. Bills don't stress him out. How this or that is going to work out doesn't ruffle him. Trying to get all of something accomplished before a deadline, no problem for him, he just does it. There is not much he worries over.

My husband's way is not my way. I was not designed like him. I worry and fret about a lot. I pray and then I worry. I recognize my sin in the worry, but I still fall back into it time and again. I cry out for God to help me. I pray and confess my belief and ask for help with my unbelief.

Over the years, I have come to realize my shortcomings that cause me to continually go back to God, have two purposes. I can not do life on my own.  I worry, because I can't control the outcome. This prideful woman is reminded I need to rely on God. In that time of relying on God, He teaches and disciplines me, so that I continually learn where to find security and peace.  He prunes me (John 15:5).

Without the continual pruning, which requires continually seeking out the Lord, I will always find the idea of rest for my sole, an easy burden and light yoke to be something which is unattainable. Lord, help me to continually abide in You.